September 26, 2008

In the Beginning ...

So, I thought I'd start from the beginning ...

In the beginning God made man ... and then God made woman and it was the woman's responsibility to have children. Unfortunately, these days, having a baby isn't as easy as it used to be. Due to the abundances of food we eat, the lack of activity our daily jobs entail and the everyday stress in our lives, it's not easy to have a child naturally these days. Thus, I had a C-section that put me out of commission for a LONG time. They say it takes about 6 months to recover from a natural birth and about a year to recover from a C-section because it's major surgery, and believe it or not, the professionals were absolutely right! It wasn't until 2 months ago that I actually felt like I could start getting back in shape.

I started working out a few months and I could honestly only run about the distance of a football field and back. Pretty pathetic for a high school and college athlete. I was so upset with myself for "letting myself go" but I realized this was not something to be upset about but a changing point in my life when I decided that who I saw in the mirror was not who I pictured in my head. So, over the past two months I have trained enough to been able to run non-stop 2 miles. I also run a 3 mile course but I had never completed it UNTIL TODAY!!!

Today, I set out a goal for myself that I was going complete a full 3 mile loop. I've tried before and my mind has always gotten the best of me. Before when I've set out to run, my mind tells me, 'just do what you can and anything beyond that is good enough.' This has always set me up for failure because I was complacent with just doing 'good enough.' Today, I told the "id" part of my brain to SHUT UP for once and let me do what I've set out to do because today I WILL finish and if I don't, it's NOT good enough for me. SUCCESS!

So while I was running, I set up my shuffle and at about 2 miles, my id was almost getting the better of me telling me to stop and walk for a bit, a little Jay-Z came on ... "thank God for granting me this moment of clarity ..." I realize this song is probably about being a gangster and overcoming racism etc but ... it was as if God was speaking to me through my shuffle, suppressing my id and encouraging me to RUN ON! And so I did ... I overcame my mind, I overcame the 2 mile hump, and I have conquered the 3 mile mark. Thank God for granting me THAT moment of clarity.

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